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life is

what you want it to be. i've been thinking about it all week, well more than i usually do, and after getting into an argument about my life with someone today i started really thinkin. trying to dig deep. as college is transitioning from counting down the days to summer to counting the days till we're no longer parentally funded "young adults", i find myself thinking more seriously about areas in my life where i don't perform seriously in.

as college unfolded i met hundreds of new people, i was pleasured to see these people become my peers in the quest of high education and unlocking this invisible "salary celieng" that accompannies a degree-less life. but also, i witnessed many of my peers get jobs that can actually hold down their alcohol driven social lives in addition to their two bedroom apartments somewhere off in the suburbs. then i saw some of my peers actually falling in the cracks. actually becoming those people that we joke about in high school. why? because they assumed life was going to continue to give out free meals. i've learned alot from these observations that everyone will and has probably gone through in the exact same process.

i find myself actually looking seriously into areas of my life that i believe are falling through the cracks as well. i'm guessing many of my friends and acquiantances know my ups and downs, good and bad qualities. ok. i'm lazy. but then you see me spinning at a school function that's bananas while people think, "that's so cool". i think i've been letting these things gas me up. i have a 2.6 gpa. i'm involved in a fairly easy major that i could easily have a 3.5 and up in. this is where i trip myself up. and this is where you also trip yourself up. i think everyone knows that "justin used to fall asleep in every class in high school" and "this fool justin neeeeeeever studies for his classes". but that's it isn't it? sure i have a UCSD sweater to prove you wrong up to a certain point. but i guess this is an area of my life where i could patch things up a bit. then i flip the page and realize that 70% of these estranged avant-garde based music classes i'm taking do not interest me what so ever, putting me in a curriculum that "readies" me for some kind of career in audio engineering, and yet gives me no motivation to actual hit the library on a friday night in addition to me questioning my attendance in UCSD's so called "ICAM Music" major in contrast to an actual certified audio training school. mind boggling it is. so between the hours of beatmaking, pages of rhymes, and hundreds of dollars of DJing equipment, am i really supposed to be completely let down because of my sub-par performance in school? my counterpart from earlier says this is true and that i should be let down. i guess so. i don't even know where i'm going with this.

i sat working my 6 hour tech-crew shift this morning. dealing with a nasty flu and a nasty lecture i was looking over sound for. and i realized that maybe these options of on-air DJing, high calibur artist production, and major label studio engineering may just be a haze of dreams i place before myself. hope not. but these are some of the things i'm thinking about more and more. will straight A's and a bachelors in music get me to these places? maybe this is the reason why i'm not at the library this very second. or maybe that's why i'm questioning the validity of my highly placed goals. who knows? just gotta keep thinking i guess.

hopefully in 10 years, we'll all be living good.

good night world
-azuré, or. maybe just justin.

finals

suck.

by the sea

yes! i'm back. within a week of my last post. for the first time! haha it's week 3 at ucsd. bought one book! aren't you proud? 2 more to go... hahaha it's been eventful these past couple weeks. last saturday morning me, aimes, glo, denicee, and fina hitup seaport village in sd. a small mini-fishermen's wharf. twas quite fun! here are some illustrations...today was also obama's inauguration. i was pretty juiced about it so i woke p at 730 am after a long night of partying at my own abode hahaha. drove over to the wifey's house and we watched it together. screw hd, i'd rather watch it with her. =]more to come! still got a room re-arrangement, xmas gifts and more goodies to post so stay tuned fellow bloggers!

-azuré

sunny san diego

so. i haven't blogged. it's been so damn long. i don't know why i can never consistently blog. but who currs haha. as i'm writing this, its 212 am, im sittin in my kitchen as my roomates snore away. i'm eating some ramen so i decided to push myself and blog! it's week 2 here at ucsd and i'm already behind. but who knew? probably everybody. ahhaa i haven't bought my books yet either...yikes. yum, this ramen is tasty after a long night spinning at the club. i guess i'll start off with winter break..
it was majestic! seeing everyone and being tight with everyone especially serrjj and kickin it at age's house...we should call it the age's house crew.. hahaha christmas was quite delightful and i enjoyed everything from shopping for a tree with eric in the pouring pinole bay area rain to our new found love for nba279 at riki's to recording with the mighty ccs crew. loved it. all of it. i missem like hell too. hope you guys come down for my 21! haha

i was able to swoop on some cd's i've been meaning to take a listen to b/c of circuit city was sellin em for 40% off. now that is a steal.surprisingly, i've never actually listend to god's son all the way thru, but now i know why it's one of nas's greats. the roots album was freakishly dark. nas's newest was more of a political slaying which i'm not too fond of. by far my fave was jazzy jeff's ridiculous cuts and samples. dude is a flippin genius. might not be too smart on fresh prince but i'm tellin you, go pickup the magnificent..it heals the soul.

i also got the chance to see slumdog millionaire with aimee last night. all the reviews are utterly true. this is one of the best movies i've seen in a long time. strikingly vivid. made me feel immensely blessed living here in freedom land. go see it. you will feel renewed.
in sd news...me and the roomies are kickin it like judo. after a 7 hour trip to baronas, jose came up 800 bucks. won his 37" hdtv in one night...can you believe it?! hahaha, my new roomie dana is nothing short of fantastic. cool chic. saying bye to brett was quite wack. i hate to see him leave us for 2 quarters after becoming so close to the guy. hope he has fun in rome tho. i started working out again so hopefully no more skinny jokes guys. haha rearranged my room to welcome my own 37" hdtv. yeah man. libra house is ballin like that bieeetch! i'll be posting a funny video of the moving as well ;] oh and i'll post my christmas goodies i got from my dearly beloved friends and family

ccs song, new one, heat. coming out next friday. keep yo eyes PEEEEELED. well. ears i mean.

well until next time
love and peace signs y'all
-azuré

tis the season

and you gotta love it.

yeah baby.

that's what i'm talkin about.

my hometown in the cozy yet uncozy bay area is ridiculously cold. my toes are gna just fall off soon. chillin has been quite relaxing. i wasn't able to snatch a part-time job this decemeber so i'm just hangin out, writing a couple rhymes and admiring my new tv at home. haaha

i'm drawing blanks, so i'll blog about my month in the next entry! =] but until then...take care world.

-azuré